So, with the main post done here goes everything.
Today I have 2 flat viewings in Glasgow, S is coming along with me to see them and give me opinions about whether or not I should take it. I already viewed one on Monday, but decided against taking it, as it was far too close to where she works
So these 2 are on the opposite side of Glasgow, in the west end. Not too far from my work, but not too close as to be never away from it, found out one is being rented by a friend of a friend as well, so that should be interesting.
I don't want to do this tonight, but I know that I have to. Every time I say to myself I am just going to let things go and stop trying to get her to talk, I go ahead and say something stupid. Last night, after lying in bed for nearly an hour, I just blurted out "I think we should split up, not separate".
This is becoming one of the biggest problems right now. I feel like she just doesn't want to deal with the main issues right now, or talk about what's going on, and I just want to know everything that has happened, or is going to happen between her and G. She can't promise that she wont persue anything with him while we are separated and this just makes me think that she is already planning to.
I have signed up for a couple of dating sites, but not put a picture up at the moment, I don't feel like I am ready to really start looking at other people right now, I guess, in a weird way, I want her to find the profiles and get angry at me for looking whilst we are still "together".
A small part of me wants to really hurt her, as much as she has hurt me, but I just can't do it, because I know that I would lose her completely from my life :(
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